Now that Easter is over I have a confession to make: I didn’t particularly enjoy the Easter season this year. I mean, the most holy of seasons and I had the blues. What’s wrong with me?
It bothers me to make such a statement, but it is how I am feeling. I could not sleep Saturday evening, not out of anticipation for Resurrection Day, but because of an unsettling spirit in my soul about the condition of the church in the United States. I have struggled to evaulate why I believe I am feeling this way. I am sure I cannot adequately put my feelings into words.
In my self-reflection I have tried to make sure my feelings are not coming out of envy, competition, or comparisons. I have asked myself if there is some type of selfish or self-aggradizement reason for my blues. I have prayed and searched my heart and I don’t think there is. There is a haunting in my soul that I believe is from the Holy Spirit. I think the heart of my blues goes beyond Easter to the complete commercialization of Christianity that has created a sub-culture that, to be quite honest, is sickening.
I have tried to write out specific examples of what I am talking about, but I keep deleting them, knowing they will only cause division and misunderstandings, and so I leave you with a simple question to ponder: Have we, the church in the United States, become event driven instead of relationship driven? And if we have, where has it gotten us and has it been worth it?
Is there anyone else having these same types of feelings, or is it just me?